I have about three weeks left here in the Philippines, an ample amount of time. But, I find myself getting restless. I have discovered a pattern in my life. Near the end of any of my adventures, I get restless and want to be done and move on to other things.
In high school, my senior year came and I was so ready to get out; to graduate and move on to earn big dollars at the Pig. Later I made the decision to do Com
Life, and I was ready to leave Zion and find some independence in GA, although I didn’t want to leave the great ol’Pig. Hehe. As ComLife came to an end, I found myself in the last few months getting restless and something inside me wanting to move on. I had to practically seat belt myself there.
Now, it’s happening again, I am ready to move on and start a new adventure. I’ve thought to myself,
“Self! Why? Why do you do this? Are you not content and happy where you are?”
No, I am, I am quite content. I love the ministry I’m involved in, the relationships I’ve made, and the people I live with, of course things are not perfect here, but, where are things perfect? Life is pleasant for me here.
This time I don’t want to be restless and fidgety. I’ve been praying and asking the Lord for more discipline in my life; to be satisfied these next few weeks and not to look to the future and what it holds for me; to focus on the ‘here and now‘. My desire isn’t to leave here now so I can go to my future, but many times that is what my flesh wants; it wants to live in the future…but how in the world can it do that?
I am trying to break the pattern. Please partner with me in prayer. I want to finish strong, to make these next few weeks the most I can. To live in the ‘here and now‘.
Also, I will not post what I’m doing next in life, till I leave the Philippines, then I’ll tell all of it!
PS. Life is “adventure”.
Good self-analysis, Maggie.
It’s understandable…knowing that your time there is at an end. So ya look forward…not wanting to commit. You’re right….finish strong. God still can use you. Live each day as if it’s your last!!! The children still need you.
Anyhow all you have is the here and now. There may not be a future…a tomorrow.
We’ll be praying for you Maggs. Enjoy your remaining days in the Phils.
we’ll be praying with you mags.
Magnum I’ll be praying for you!!! I completely understand you’re feeling. I’m constantly looking into what is to come. Maybe once you’ve mastered this you can tell me how to do it:) On a less serious note-I”M SO STOKED TO SEE YOU:) Oops I probably shouldn’t have said that on a blog about you trying to be in the moment in the Philippines-my bad!!
Yes! Go Mags!